I am currently feeling:
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We had this program called Mix It Up, and today was day two. We had 3rd period for an hour and a half and we were supposed to talk about "Fair Fighting". Now there's and oxymoron for ya.
Well, Ms. Blanarovich thought that this was incredibly stupid and meant for 4th graders, so instead of really doing it, we took all the humor and started ridiculing it.
Boy, was that great.
There was the "fighting fair" process of eliminating a problem. Ouch. Not the best idea. Then there was the list of "fighting fouls". FOr example, name calling ("You butt-head!"), pushing or shoving (Oh yes, there IS a difference!), and put-downs "Wow....you suck.")
It was the funniest thing ever.
Then we got serious and she brought us onto a more better topic. She thought it was stupid to even consider going thru all these steps when you should just put the problem out into the open, deal with it, then let it go.
Then that's when I realized I hadn't been letting go of many things. She told us, "Why care what anyone else thinks?" and I know I think of that a lot and that only happens most of the time for me. I want to change that. She told us that because she's so weird, people will call her crazy names but she'll just brush it off, because, "Who cares? What value is their opinion to me?"
And she's right, I know that. I've set myself a goal, and that's not to care anymore. Sometimes I do, sometimes I don't. But now, I don't want to have to change because of one opinion. I should stay true to myself. The only opinions that matter now are the opinions from the important people to me.
It's just always that little insecurity that pops into your head when someone whispers something behind your back that gets to me. And it sometimes seems like none of those things that people say will bother me, but I think it really does an I'm unaware of it. Weird, but I won't let it get to me anymore. There should never be an insecurity within you...I guess that makes a lot of sense. Or the way Eleanor Roosevelt put it:
"No one can make you feel inferior but yourself."
And that's very well true also.
I want to change. Change to not care. And I hope it works because being so insecure about yourself sometimes gets to you and it's not such a great feeling. But I know I can do this. No one will stop me because, remember? I don't care! ^_^
This must sound weird right after I typed an entry up about a squirrel but I think I've made some point...or something....
Eh...
Aldo. THE Aldo. She's Better Than You.
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